Mary JensenMay 30, 20201 minThe StormThe Storm A broken mother And sad brother Eternal cloudy days A father with regrets Apologies are unpaid debts Rain washing away that...
Mary JensenFeb 16, 20204 minThe Dark Side of My Grief Trigger warning: PTSD, car accident, death Grief is More Than Feeling Sad and Lonely What do you think about when you hear the word grief?...
Mary JensenAug 18, 20193 minThe Last of The FirstsRemember when our children were born, and it doesn’t really matter how many children we have, we counted their first smile, their first...
Mary JensenAug 6, 20192 minTwenty-OneHow do we do this today? It's supposed to be a day of celebration, presents, and blowing out candles. It's supposed to be a day spent...
Mary JensenJun 19, 20194 minGrief is ExhaustingI’m so tired. I’m tired of feeling sad. I’m tired of my feet feeling like weights as I walk from place to place. Every morning I look in...
Mary JensenMay 19, 20193 minPlanning the One Year MemorialThe school year is almost over. It’s usually a time for family vacations and days spent in the pool or at the beach. I think back to the...
Mary JensenMay 6, 20192 minThe Day He Died is Like an Old Movie Spinning Endlessly on its ReelEvery day these moments play in my head like an old movie spinning endlessly on its reel. I am left stuck sitting there watching it over an
Mary JensenMar 17, 20194 minA painful existence between acceptance and denialI had lunch this week with a good friend of mine. She and I have something in common. We are part of this miserable club that no one...
Mary JensenFeb 20, 20195 minI want to help people who feel broken inside find their new normalI know my posts lately have been dark, sad, and filled with grief. (I promise this one won't be too sad and dark) I am trying to cope...
Mary JensenJan 21, 20194 minThis is My New Normal...Five Months after My Son’s DeathIt’s been five months now. Five months since Erik’s death. I still have a hard time saying that. While I know he is gone, it is...
Mary JensenDec 25, 20183 minA Different Kind of ChristmasIt’s Christmas day. Our home is decorated inside and out with ornaments and holiday trinkets. Garland carefully draped along the...
Mary JensenNov 22, 20182 minWhy I Am GratefulThanksgiving is here, Christmas is not far behind, and 2018 is coming to a fast close. As we get ready to greet family and friends and...
Mary JensenNov 11, 20182 minA Faithless GriefWe all experience grief in our own way. I suppose some people can process grief more easily than others. I am not one of those people. ...
Mary JensenOct 7, 20182 minMy Heart is a Firestorm Fueled by GriefThe palms of my hands hurt. Yet the scorching pain in my heart is relentless. I feel as if I am losing my mind. The hardest times for...
Mary JensenSep 28, 20183 minIt's called a Bereavement Support GroupAfter some confusion with my GPS map, I finally found the right building on the Hospice property where the bereavement support group...
Mary JensenSep 25, 20181 minA few thoughts before my first grief support group meetingTonight I am going to my first grief support group meeting which is hosted by the local hospice. I heard it's a very good group. I don't...
Mary JensenSep 23, 20181 minStop telling me its going to be okayErik, I'm struggling so bad.. How the hell do I accept this? How do I continue to live without feeling guilty you're not? My best...
Mary JensenSep 23, 20182 minMy Heart is Broken, Still Life Goes OnI had this dream a few nights ago. It was a weird dream. I was in an old fashioned home. The rooms were painted in dark colors. There...
Mary JensenSep 11, 20181 minWhen willMy sister, Emily, wrote this beautiful poem in memory of my son Erik. I loved it and wanted to share it with you. #ErikHoxie...
Mary JensenSep 11, 20182 minI need help getting through thisI think my husband is worried about me, seriously worried. Sunday night I was watching a show on TV. It was the last episode, the...
